A Beautiful Escape

Love the job you can’t leave, or leave the job you can’t love. 

That statement stuck with me throughout our training in Work Attitude and Values Enhancement. It says so much about the current state of my career life right now. 

Earlier we were asked what we hoped to accomplish at the seminar’s conclusion: I answered, “I want to revitalize the fire within.” For the past weeks, I’ve been feeling something that I don’t want to. 

Feeling. 

The seminar talked about not using feelings as a precursor to responding to internal and external stimuli because it changes too often. I need to have values or principles that are set which will guide my way of responding to the said stimuli.

I should follow that, I guess. I need to weigh all options I have before making any decisions.

I hope the following days will get better. 

MAY

And just like that, four months have already gone by 2013.

My life has been moving slower than what I had planned in my head, but at least it’s moving. I intend to just follow through and not try to increase the speed, for now. I’ll just enjoy the ride.

I feel sad that people are leaving in my department at work. I find it depressing that I would be losing people who adore me (sorry, first thing that came to mind, haha) okay really, people who I spend my down time, breaks, lunches, after work dinners with. I’m pretty sure you know what I’m talking about.

Anyway, ever since our office moved to the farthest reaches of EDSA extension, I held on tight even if it meant riding public transport (which I thoroughly hate because it messes up my white and easily creased uniform and I end up getting stains from grease or from the person next to me) because I knew I’d be hard pressed to find a workplace as comforting and warm as my current one. But with the rate things are going… well, if it happens it happens.

I just hope for the best, and like I said earlier, I’ll just follow through with my plans.