A Beautiful Escape

COUNTING THE DAYS

As time ticks ever so slowly, he looks longingly at the clock in front of him, wishing it would go faster so he can end his day.

The few hours of night between each day was his recluse, his fortress. He feels aloof and wishing it would never end. He stretches the night until the wee hours of the morning, just so he can feel not being in a place where he doesn’t want to be.

“What should I do?” A question he asks that’s met with the same answer:

“What do you want?” An answer that frustrates him because he knows his decision lies with him and no one else. “How can I decide if even in me I am not sure?” he asks, repeating it every minute of every day.

His heart tells one thing and his brain another. A fierce battle between the two ancient rivals, only this time, love is never in the equation.

As he looks left and right and quickly types something on the keyboard, his heart racing at the thought of someone reading it.

“Am I going to take this step only to take it back?” He questions his decision. His pride won’t allow him to take back something he’d already admonish to people.

A few days. He needs a few days to think, and to think hard.

“This is it.” He mutters as he lifts his foot and takes the step forward, firmly planting it on the ground.

SO IT ENDS TO LET ANOTHER BEGIN

I know it’s a little late for a year ender post, since we’re all way into January. But it’s only the 5th tomorrow, so I guess there’s still time.

A lot has happened the past year, some good, some bad, some worse. All in all 2011 did a balancing act on how I felt about it.

This year, I got hired for my second job, and while it was a far departure from my previous one, I was thankful that I was chosen, that I was the one they deemed worthy of being trained, and to be someone who represents the company to clients, VIPs at that.

I do admit it was hard to adjust, after coming from a creative industry. But soon I learned to accept what I had to do, after all, I accepted this job.

Fortunately, I got to “sideline” as a photographer for the company’s events, to which I am very grateful for. I just loved taking photos, and I feel that event photography is one of the most difficult, and tiring, type of photography. But I could care less that I had to run around the room taking photos, there is joy whenever I click the shutter and the image comes out great.

This year, my passion was recognized and rewarded. No details available as of this time. Soon! Hahaha!

This year, my luck decided to turn for the better. I won a mobile phone in a contest I forgot I joined. I was even ready to make an affidavit of loss, since I was almost certain that the ticket stub for my win would be long gone.

During our company christmas party, while standing near the stage, drink in hand, sipping it slowly and trying to look nonchalant while they were announcing the winners of the major prizes, I heard my name.

I was surprised. Shocked. I won a TV. Yay!

This year, I had the best Christmas. My titas were all complete, and we had dinner and opening gifts together. It was so happy. Too bad my father wasn’t able to come home for the holidays, though.

This year I made awesome friends. The one thing I am most concerned about working was the people I would be working with. I can be the best at what I do, but if I don’t like the people I work with, and vice versa, It won’t do any good.

I am thankful that my officemates became my friends. Work becomes lighter (especially in my case) when you work with people you like.  They really are my family outside of home.

This year I learned to view things as they are. Never assume, so I never get hurt. It’s hard to decipher flirting with real affection, so I take everything in stride, and never think too deeply of people’s actions toward me.

2011 was not exactly the best year, but it wasn’t the worst.

I’m going to keep things in perspective for 2012. I’m going to try new things, take more risks, be more aggressive (hala kayo!). Even if the world ends on December 21, 2012, I can say I’ve lived the life I always wanted.